Music Makes Me Sad :(

by Courtney Sirotin on February 5, 2012

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Warning: I’m going dark.

Last night there was an Adele song playing during a commercial for the Super Bowl and Jay commented that it was a weird choice for the ad because it was about a breakup and the ad was just about football. I asked who it was by and he said Adele and was shocked I didn’t know that because its a popular song.

Its not weird at all that I wouldn’t know a popular song because I generally try to avoid listening to music because it makes me too emotional. Sad songs, happy songs, children’s songs…somehow they all move me to tears. Happy songs make me think about how precious happy moments are because there will be days of sadness to come. Children’s songs make me nostalgic for the time I am experiencing right  now in my life with Dylan, before the time has even passed. This is why I exclusively listen to audiobooks and podcasts…its a form of emotional preservation.

So, last night as I was eating my ice cream and getting close to going to bed Jay wanted to show me who Adele is so he played her video for me from OnDemand. If you’ve ever heard Adele’s song, Someone Like You, then you can imagine how it hit me like a ton of bricks.

Don’t I look pathetic? The song sent me on an emotional downward spiral. I started thinking about love and loss and future sadness. And now that I’m a mother I also started dreading any future sadness Dylan will face. I began to worry about my health and Jay’s health and how long we will be able to live for Dylan’s sake. Tears flowed and Jay comforted me, all the while laughing at how quickly I went from having a normal night to being a complete basket case. Then he took pictures of me and insisted I blog about it. And here we are.

Oh, and then he thought it would be funny to tweet Adele about my misery! (Without telling me first!)

Adele’s voice is amazing and while I absolutely loved the song, I don’t think I’m going to listen to it again. Especially not before bed.

{ 6 comments… read them below or add one }

JASON SIROTIN February 5, 2012 at 5:00 pm

For the record it wasn’t a commercial for football it was a package within the NFL Honors special. Whoever edited that piece is an idiot because they obviously never listened to the words to Adele’s song or they wouldn’t have placed it over football players during a game. It made absolutely no sense! I understand that they were going for an emotional moment but a song about a bad breakup? Really?

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CARTESS ROSS February 8, 2012 at 8:19 pm

Adele is the greatest… It has officially become my all time favorite CD. I listen to it daily and my 2 youngest girls demand I play it everytime we get in the car (her song ‘Rolling in the Deep’).

It is an emotional CD and really gets you thinking — which is why I probably love it soo much.

Anyhow… Great post. Don’t worry so much about what may or may not happen. Live in the ‘now’ and enjoy it. Sad days will surely come and that’s the time you can be ‘sad’. But don’t be sad today 😉

Great seeing you at Bounce N Beans today. I can’t believe how much time has passed. You and Jason parents now… WOW!

I’ve subscribed to your blog and will be following along!

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COURTNEY February 9, 2012 at 4:09 am

Awww, Carl…I love this comment! My mother says the same thing about dealing with sad days when they come rather than in advance. It’s good advice that I want to take more. It was so great seeing you today too! You actually inspired the blog post I wrote tonight: http://www.iamamess.com/feeding-the-floor-a-chick-fil-a-adventure/

I’m so happy for all your success!

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JAMIE December 23, 2012 at 10:38 pm

I have the same problem as you. Every type of music tends to instill super sad feelings inside of me. I somehow relate the song to my life, or future life, and it kills me. A happy song makes me sad because I wish I could be perfectly happy like that (or even that I used to be able to listen to happy music just fine). I get such anxiety in stores, restaurants, from commercials and shows, etc. My favorite place to shop is Target because there’s no music! And “Someone” absolutely sends me into a depression, too. I can’t take emotional things, even if it’s happy emotion. But I USED to be able to listen to Adele. Have you had any trauma in your life recently? I think I’m suffering from some strange nervous breakdown in my life. Everything emotional makes me sad.

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COURTNEY December 24, 2012 at 2:39 am

Thanks for your comment, Jamie! I haven’t suffered any recent trauma but I do think a lot shifted in me around the time I hit puberty. Ever since then I have been more…emotional? Self-aware? I’m not sure exactly, but, like you, I also used to (when I was little) listen to music just fine. It’s interesting about Target. Take my tip and listen to audiobooks. They are my saving grace!

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DD December 31, 2017 at 2:35 pm

I’m so glad I’m not alone in this. I was thinking about why I don’t listen to much music yesterday and came to the same conclusion. I just cannot cope with the emotions that come up. There are others out there like me! . I too listen to podcasts and audio books and rarely know what music people are listening to.

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